..understanding

So I hung out w Ryan Greenwell yesterday before he left to work on another cruise ship. Naturally, that resulted in me going nucking futs for absolutely no reason. I swear spending time with him makes me revert back to the needy person I was when I was with him. So, I spent the rest of the day being absolutely obnoxious to Ryan, sending him at least 14 texts over the course of 3 hours. "I miss you", "I had lunch w the wrong Ryan today :(", "Are you in class?", "How was your test?", "How were classes?", "I'm about to go to the grocery store, are you sure you can't stop by for dinner sometime this week?",...,"Did you get all of the texts from your super needy girlfriend?" and on and on and on.

I did at least admit that I was being needy, and even found a website and posted it here for my future reference. After that, I mellowed out a little bit, then we had a text conversation bc Benji made me realize that I'm going to be one of those unbearable parents who think that everything their kid does is adorable. He really was adorable though. I was watching Greek downstairs and the football game was on upstairs, so he decided to go upstairs and watch the game rather then lay on my lap. My dad was so proud. He was getting a bit concerned when I told him about Benji's affinity for Gilmore Girls.

Anyway, I chilled out a lot more after that and watched the football game. Ryan called around 10:30 to ask if I was ok. I can't even begin to explain how relieved I was that he didn't think I was crazy (or at least crazier than usual). I told him about the whole thing with Ryan Greenwell's presence making me insane, and apologized. He was like yeah I was wondering what's up, I mean we saw each other 48 hours ago, and you've successfully gone more than 48 hours without seeing me before and been ok. Be patient, if you can just be patient for the next year and half you can have me for the rest of forever. (which makes me smile just to type) Thankfully, I have the most understanding boyfriend ever. He puts up with all of my neuroses and notices when there's something wrong. He's so attentive :-) ok, I'm finished with work, and am gonna go home now.