The L word

No I don't mean lesbian...

I really want to say I love you to Ryan. I know I love him, but I want to wait for the right time.
I don't want to pressure him into saying it prematurely, but everytime I think about it, I want to say it. Aside from not wanting to pressure him, I want to hear him say it first. I want it to be something he thinks about and obsesses over whether it's the right time, but most of all I want to hear him initiate it. I don't want to hear I love you too. I want to hear I love you.